I think one of the toughest parts about the 9th month of pregnancy is the waiting game of when the baby will come. What makes it even harder is suffering from so many pre-labor contractions that fool me into thinking maybe this is the real thing! My time of day to get contractions seems to be between 2 a.m. and 5 a.m. (really weird since it's a time when I'm laying on my side and doing absolutely nothing)! I usually find myself tossing and turning for those few hours, going to the bathroom numerous times (because pretty much every time I have a contraction I have to go to the bathroom) and eventually taking a bath so I can actually relax. It's really hard to go through these painful contractions only to find that they eventually go away and I'm not in real labor.
I have been incredibly emotional lately. I feel like I cry myself to sleep every night because today wasn't the day that baby decided to come. I am currently only 5 days away from my due date and it's frustrating for me to hear that it's normal for first time moms to go late. I was just so sure I would have this baby early since I went into early labor at 34 weeks. Now I am thinking I am going to be pregnant until mid-November! I have returned to work part-time which seems to help the days go faster, but it definitely doesn't make life any easier. I go to work and play with babies all afternoon and all I can think about is how I don't have my little guy yet. Then I go to church and see TONS of new little babies that have been born in the past month and it makes me so upset because I have so anxiously been waiting for mine to come. It's also hard when I see the same people every day/week and they always say "why hasn't that baby come yet!" or asking "how are you feeling?" Well, I'm not feeling that great because I have contractions every day and have been waiting weeks for my baby to come and I cry myself to sleep all the time because he's not here yet and all I want is for my little boy to be here! I understand their concern, it's just hard to hear it all the time.
I have decided to talk to my midwife about being induced at 41 weeks if the baby hasn't come by then. It's definitely not my first choice, but I have been so incredibly uncomfortable that I think I have a right to say that I'm not going to keep being pregnant after 41 weeks!
One thing I have enjoyed about this month is getting to spend more time with my husband. Since we have kept our schedule so open in case the baby comes, we have had several evenings to spend together. It's not always easy when I come home from work and have Braxton Hicks, but my "Lovey" will rub my back, make me a good meal and make me laugh a lot. He has also put up with my tossing and turning every night (and with that getting smacked in the face with my 3rd pillow that I keep under my belly), and even comforting me at 4:30 a.m. when I am crying because I can't sleep. He's awesome :)
Honest post apotratz! It IS common but I have been thinking you would go early too, any day but maybe there is a reason. Maybe he needs to bake a little longer. That doesn't do anything to ease your discomfort, pain and frustration but he will be here soon. I think that it is perfectly acceptable to ask to be induced if he isn't here by 41 weeks. You have been having so many contractions and false labor that it may be the jolt your body needs! Sounds like Lovey is pretty amazing and you two will have one awesome kid.
ReplyDeleteI agree that it is perfectly acceptable to be induced! I considered induction with Coop because of my quick and random labors at 39 weeks. I will be praying that he comes when the time is perfect for him and that God will give you peace and patience as you wait his arrival!!!!
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