One of my favorite music artists is Elizabeth Hunnicutt. I saw her open for The David Crowder Band once and I immediately fell in love with her music. She takes such awe inspiring poetry and puts it to music. One song that really hit home for me was her song "Finally Feel Like Living."
As I look over my life, I can say I have TONS of regrets, and maybe that's how it is for lots of people, but I especially find myself thinking about these regrets on a daily basis. I made so many awful mistakes and decisions when growing up and now they come back to haunt me. I've prayed over and over again that God would help me to forgive myself and forget about what I've done, just like He's done for me, but the enemy still creeps in and brings back the feelings of guilt and shame. But one thing I am starting to learn is that I am totally wasting away when I spend so much time worrying about my past. The other day I heard myself saying to someone "I wasted so much time focusing on other things when I was younger, that it really kept me from growing my faith. I mean...look at my faith now! I could have such a deeper relationship with Christ NOW if I hadn't wasted my time back then!" My husband is a marvelous man and he said to me, "If you are having those thoughts and feelings, then they are from the enemy! You know the Truth of the Cross, and it has washed away the shame, regret, fear, and sin from your past." And then to have him pray over me was just breathtaking. Embraced in not only the love of a wonderful husband, but also of Jesus my Savior!
Elizabeth Hunnicutt
Finally Feel Like Living
I heard somebody say,
"The worst decision you can make
is to make no decision"
& I think they may be right,
I'm still trying to decide
Oh this feels like a collision
Cause what if I regret some choice along the way
What if failure finally catches me
If I want to fly
I'm gonna have to say goodbye
& start a brand new way of life
That finally feels like living
& I've got to to try
Stop holding on to all these lies
I'm tired of wasting all this time
I finally feel like living
I could wait until I know
just what to do & where to go
But I might be here forever
I could surrender to my fears,
like I've done for all these years
& never know if it gets better
There's a chance that I might miss these old familiar walls
& these chains I couldn't even see
Oh I thought I was
But I wasn't living
I'm stepping out
Into a new beginning
As I look over my life, I can say I have TONS of regrets, and maybe that's how it is for lots of people, but I especially find myself thinking about these regrets on a daily basis. I made so many awful mistakes and decisions when growing up and now they come back to haunt me. I've prayed over and over again that God would help me to forgive myself and forget about what I've done, just like He's done for me, but the enemy still creeps in and brings back the feelings of guilt and shame. But one thing I am starting to learn is that I am totally wasting away when I spend so much time worrying about my past. The other day I heard myself saying to someone "I wasted so much time focusing on other things when I was younger, that it really kept me from growing my faith. I mean...look at my faith now! I could have such a deeper relationship with Christ NOW if I hadn't wasted my time back then!" My husband is a marvelous man and he said to me, "If you are having those thoughts and feelings, then they are from the enemy! You know the Truth of the Cross, and it has washed away the shame, regret, fear, and sin from your past." And then to have him pray over me was just breathtaking. Embraced in not only the love of a wonderful husband, but also of Jesus my Savior!
Elizabeth Hunnicutt
Finally Feel Like Living
I heard somebody say,
"The worst decision you can make
is to make no decision"
& I think they may be right,
I'm still trying to decide
Oh this feels like a collision
Cause what if I regret some choice along the way
What if failure finally catches me
If I want to fly
I'm gonna have to say goodbye
& start a brand new way of life
That finally feels like living
& I've got to to try
Stop holding on to all these lies
I'm tired of wasting all this time
I finally feel like living
I could wait until I know
just what to do & where to go
But I might be here forever
I could surrender to my fears,
like I've done for all these years
& never know if it gets better
There's a chance that I might miss these old familiar walls
& these chains I couldn't even see
Oh I thought I was
But I wasn't living
I'm stepping out
Into a new beginning
You know, I actually struggle with the same thing. I spend so much of my time thinking about conversations I've had and things I've done in the past and how I would have done it differently if I could. I think its the reason I have low self-esteem now, because I focus so much on the mistakes I've made in the past. Reading your post helped me to realize that I can ask God to help me with it.
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